You know what’s frustrating me right now? It is the exact fact that I am not writing nor reading. Do you know what I’m doing? I am doing everything else to be a writer, and avid reader. Why? I literally just paused. I couldn’t answer that question. Why am I doing that? Yes, some things are administrative. They can have their headache, but they have been doable.
Let me give you an example of what I am talking about, I just set up my “stay connected with me page” and if you’ve read it, you can understand why I set it up. I will debrief, briefly: because the experts say it is good to have a newsletter sign up. But all I want to do is write.
I cannot explain the feeling when I’m excavating into writing, and going through the learning process of it etc. but then comes knocking at my door the “you have to do this and that to be successful” OK, let’s examine that, ‘Success’
…I just deleted a whole paragraph. You know why? Because I can. I didn’t like it. Even when I wrote it, I didn’t like it.
Success is, without sounding religious, is fulfilling my purpose in my life placement and loving God and others and enjoying what I love doing most. Reading and writing. I most def love art and fashion, but there’s just one bar more on the writing, I can’t deny it. It’s there. My soul speaks when I write. So as with art and fashion, but with words…they can be really straight to the point, exactly, unless, they are not, because one chooses to.
I believe I need to break a pattern. I need to fully switch to success as enjoying what I love most: read. write. art. I need to ‘stop learning’ and breaking things apart to reset it at my desires. Not everything will work out. Just write lydia. Just write.
